I think every person on this earth goes through moments that change them. You may not even know at the time, but when you look back you are going to see that little by little, your past makes you who you are. When I was in my early 20's I was so focused on what I thought I needed to be. I made sure that I kept my house in good order, I was staying on top of laundry, when guests came over I had a good selection of coffee. I would stay on top of current events and could make a mean grocery list. I was always trying for a promotion at work and I always had to pick the best presents for my loved one. I wish I could tell you how much of my 24 years I have already wasted for being super early and waiting around for things.
This year, my 24th year of life has been my moment. I have a life that looks absolutely nothing like I thought it would, and yet it is perfect for me in my current season of life. A year ago I lived in a cool downtown apartment, I had a job downtown in the heart of the city. I was a fiance, I had a wedding dress in my closet and I was busy planning what I thought the rest of my life was going to look like.
Trust in the lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths. Proverbs 3:5-6
My moment happened almost a year ago. I can tell you in the course of the last 12 months my life has changed and it has been so great. A year ago if you had told me this is what 24 looks like, I would have called you crazy. I am no longer engaged, I have moved to the north side of the city and have a new job! As someone who does not embrace change easily this has been a character building year for me.
Lets talk about God. You could say God and I have always had a relationship. Since I was young I have been going to church and youth groups and always knew there was something out there bigger than me. It has been more in the last year that we have become best friends. Last year on the lowest day of life so far, I prayed for him to show me the way, to ask him to bring me out of this broken heart and deflated soul. And oh did he answer! He listened to me even when I thought no one could hear.
And the Lord will guide you continually and satisfy your desire in scorched places and make your bones strong; and you shall be watered like a garden, like a spring of water, whose waters do not fall. Isaiah 58:11
People say things happen for a reason. I would like to think things happen because thats what God wants. I am suprised every day now by the turns my path takes, and even more so by the people who I have met along the way. I have been so blessed in the last year of my life to get to meet so many new people who have added so much more to my journey that I could ever imagine. God knows what my plan is, and he knows I was trying too hard to push what I thought my life was supposed to look like, as opposed to what I needed. For this I am grateful. Wherever you are on your journey, or whatever season of life you are in. Just stay calm because God has a plan for you!